Yes...It's slowly but surely working....I'm getting back to normal...and getting accustomed to these new and alien surroundings...to think that i would have so much trouble acclimatizing and getting used to a system outside my comfort zone would take so much time was interesting...That i become so emotionally attached to a place that i am unwilling to change(almost) was something that i discovered new in me...the good news though is that i'm much better off with the experience than having been at home all my life and feeling much worse otherwise...
back to class and another mundane day amongst so many others that have come to characterize the training here..hmm... i guess that's life... a sine wave-Ups and downs-crests and troughs in singular repitition..Joy and disappointements...round and round and round and round...
Amen to that...
 
ritz

Why do things irritate me more when I am not quite in the right frame of mind ?? Should I not be patient and thinking about what I should do before I react,often unnecessarily...HELP ME GOD !! I need to be able to go through this ordeal...Oh,for the warm feeling of my bed at home....What I would not give to be able to go back to my wild days at IITM...My room,the tea-shop,gurunath,or any of the numerous haunts in the forested campus...Chennai-the hot and humid sun beating down on my head,the contented sleep at the end of a good days work...Brain-storming on assignments and the latest crushes alike,with friends,and often coming out with the ultimate solution-"INSHALLAH"....
Experiences and memories that I'll have for a lifetime and will forever cherish...
Oh,for those careless days again...How I wish.....

ritz

I am a believer in the fact that your experiences in the first few years of your life shape your personality for the years to come...Infact when people ask me why i am very patient and cool-headed in certain situations i always tend to remember the personal difficulties that I have gone through which make the current problem pale into insignificance...I have heard of eminent personalities like Sachin Tendulkar and Michael Jordan using videos of their phenomenal successes to cheer them up when they go through a bad patch...It's got to work for me NOW since i realise that i am going through a trial by fire !!Everyday is a battle against myself...What I instinctively would have done has to be tempered and colly thought about before execution now....And I am alone this time...No help is forthcoming or would make the slightest difference to how i feel...I firmly also believe that by sharing your problems with a confidante,you donot achieve anything since the other person would never be able to feel the situation the same way as i do and therefore not come out with a feasible solution..Ultimately, i would be wasting both of our time and may even get frustrated...I realise though,that,by coming out victorious in this battle alone,there will nothing in this world that can stop me from achieving what i want to do in the long-term...So help me GOD so that I am motivated enough to come through this ordeal relatively unscathed..And give me the patience that I will need to come out of uncomfortable situations without too much collateral damage...

ritz