It's final...After a lotta effort and use of means which would qualify under the hook or crook methods and the beg/borrow/steal mechanisms,it finally happened...Fate played the core role in ensuring that inspite of planning my every move for the last 6-8 months,I will NOT be posted in chennai...
On Monday i'll be joining in Mumbai for a practice that I did not want,a job that I do not inherently relate to,a city i hate for it's ruthlessness and lack of time-at all times and most importantly fo having failed in my efforts to do what I want to do and where I want to do it....
It was a shock to me when reality dawned on me yesterday...had time to think and ruminate about the consequences...Some positives...A new city..I might like it..had the same apprehensions abt chennai when i came over..friends-will not match those that i had at iitm,but worth knowing a different set of people...
Most importantly,I beleive I am a little too sentimental at times...hanging on to my comfort zone,wishing for things that dont affect the controlled disarray in my life,etc..maybe it' s useful to see how i react to a drastic change in lifestyle...I might fail and hate it ,but i will know only when i try it out...
As i said in my last post..Fate...not GOD,not some supernatural power that came in and gave me chennai when i prayed to him for it..Plain and simple Fate...and since i cannot control my fate/destiny i am comfortable with whatever i got...simply becos i cant do much abt it..
Maybe someday I will have in me the power to change the fate of my fellow beings..that's an ambition that i have had for a long time..Power-complete and absolute...Gets you respect,fame,wealth and all the luxuries u could wish for...Not money alone,bcos life would be drab with me not knowing what i must do with it...
Thats a theory I have and will share another day...
The good news...I am outta here tomorrow morning...it's the end of a programme i didnt particularly enjoy simply bcos of the lack of good company...maybe mumbai will be better...

ritz

As part of our training,we were asked to come up on stage and talk improptu for a few mins..My topic was "Is Man God's greatest blunder or is Man God's greatest blunder ?" It's based on a quote by Fredrich Nietzsche..

I argued for God being man's greatest blunder(simply bcos somebody else had already argued on the cliched Man is God's greatest blunder...)

Simple reasoning:My belief is "There is no GOD"..What we beleive to be GOD is nothing but the human pyscho-portrait of the spirit/conscience that exists within us...

When do we turn to GOD ? when we are in trouble..Trouble usually means a dilemma to choose b/w 2 alternatives..One which is right and one which is wrong...there's a thin line between the 2 but what makes the difference lucid is the answer we get when we ask ourselves the question that is plaguing our thots...

So,although we know the answer even before we ask ourselves the question,we try to delude ourselves into a state where we can be comfortable with our existence...Isn't that hypocritical ??
Isn't worshipping and going through elaborate rituals for a being that we created using our imagination an utter waste of resources and time ??

But we still do it...I do..Reciting the Gayatri mantra after a bath religiously for last "n" years... and with a lot of reverance..but only when it's important to me...like most other people..

We use GOD as a support structure for an existence we beleive to be crippled and not on par with others in this world...We are always looking at the more fortunate ones on this planet and hoping" I wish I had the comforts he has .."- with GOD's grace,of course..
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(Btw,who said GOD is a male and why is he always referred to as "He"...Interesting fact:No religion professes A Woman to be the sole deity..Christianity comes close with Mary and Hinduism with it's "N" godesses..eventhough she is the giver of birth to the newborn)..

I dunno...I believe this makes "GOD-man's greatest blunder"..we look for answers from Him when none exist actually...It's a delusion we permit ourselves and hence are too dependent on it...Thousand's of ppl wish for millions of things everyday and whether they get it or not is based on their own efforts to attain it...or Fate/Destiny/Luck..Kinda like the scene in the movie "Bruce Almighty"...

Now,I do believe in Fate and that it's what rules our lives...Whether the concept of Fate is a blunder or not is not something that i have thot abt..worth a dime...maybe some other time..

ritz